In case you are wondering-I'm waiting by the phone!

So,here I sit thinking that they wouldn't refer out for one girl referral for March 7th and not ours so I'm clinging to hope that with in the next hour we will get our call. I don't think they usually call this late but I'm still waiting. It's 15 weeks today and it looks like we will be traveling after the rainy season. Come on Children's Hope, now would be a perfect time to call!

Lots of referrals this week...

There have been a record amount of referrals this week and it is very exciting. At the same time, I have to say that today has been one of my most stressful and hardest day in a long time. They actually referred a family whose dossier went to Ethiopia the same day as ours! I waited and cried and waited and cried and nothing. I am soooo happy for the families who received the picture of their children this week but it doesn't lessen the disappointment of not getting the call. This week is probably the last week that has a chance of making it through court before the rainy season. It's hard because I new we'd be right on the brink of making it. I'm hoping that tomorrow they will have just one more call to make. I know this sounds so greedy, I never expected to see a referral for our date and not be included in the calls. I guess I was a little emotionally unprepared. Enough rambling for now. Congratulations to all the new family's, what a wonderful day for you!

14 weeks

CHI had 6 referrals today for 4 family groups. Congrats to all the new families. I was nervous all day thinking this could be the day we saw our baby girl. I tried to explain it to a co-worker by telling her that I felt that I was 9 centimeters dialated and the doctor told me not to push because it wasn't time. To make matters more complicated, when she's finally ready, we will have to wait months to actually hold her. I'm tired of waiting for the phone to ring.

I really thought today would be the day

For some reason, I really thought today would be the day. Today is my son's 5th birthday and he's been asking for his baby sister a lot lately. I told him that she would come home when he was five. Of course, he took that literally and thought that his birthday would be the day. I was hoping we would have a picture to share with him but it doesn't look like it will be today. Every time I look at the clock I say "there's still 3 more hours" "2 more hours" "30 more minutes". I guess there's still time. Talk about a gluten for punishment LOL. I'll wait as long as it takes.

I think they lost my phone number

Ok....so what are the chances that Children's Hope International has lost my phone number. I know it sounds obsurd but isn't it possible?? I haven't heard of any referrals in the last two weeks, which is disappointing to say the least. I almost called to see if they could give me an idea of my chances of getting a referral this month in hopes to make it through the courts before the rainy season. At the very least I could make sure they had all working and appropriate phone numbers to reach me. I hope it's soon because the wait it trully killing me. It's been over 18 months that I've been waiting for that call and I'm ready!!!! OK....thats it. If anyone is reading this from CHI email me to let me know you can reach me if you wanted. Here's to a busy, referral full week.

Destiny

So I was having a bad day, just thinking about how long we will have to wait if we don't get our referral with in the next couple of weeks and was looking for a sign, or inspiration or something to clear my head. I opened a book and this is what I turned to


Destiny

This is bigger than you and me
Nothing can come in between
For the door is open
And I'm walking through,
To what has already been approved

Make every moment count
Yesterday is gone,
And tomorrow who knows what will come
Through the spirit I see with signs I'm guided
For what is to be, can't be undone

So all we have is here and now
I put my trust in The Almighty Hands
To walk this land in the direction
Fulfilling my purpose, with possible distractions
But whatever the situation there is a solution

Life experience is preparation
Even disappointments are on my side,
Teaching and moving me to new insights
I will not worry I release to be free
Because some things are meant to be

Nothing stops or blocks
The pathway to my destined place
The dream will not sleep
My destiny awaits
Because I can see it looking back at me
I do more than speak, I prophesy
For what is mine God will provide

I will not fear what lies ahead
When darkness comes
The light will shine bright,
Illuminating the way for me
So I can continue my journey
To my destiny--
Michelle Hanna

It helped me, hope it helps you to.

12 weeks of waiting

No new referrals this week that I heard of. I think, at this point, we should assume that we will be receiving our referral in a couple of months and probably traveling some time at the end of the year. I've decided to get some projects done while I wait and maybe it will help pass the time. Chris has started fixing the fence in the back yard and getting it more kid friendly. I have spent the whole weekend sorting through paperwork and cleaning out closets. You would be amazed at the things you find when you get the back of a closet. I registered our son for kindergarten and am preparing for his 5th birthday party in a couple of weeks. That's about all for this week. Hope to see lots more referrals next week to move us up in line!!